Exploring Touch and Intimacy Beyond Full Service

One of the questions I get asked daily, multiple times a day, is why I stopped offering full service around 2020 and on/off during the pandemic. 

I haven’t spoken about it much since then, publicly. 

There have been many rumours and accusations thrown around, from clients and reply guys. Like: 

— “my boyfriend made me.” 

— “I have an STI.”

Neither of these options are true. If you think I would let a man control my finances and business choices, you have not followed me for long nor met me. This is absolutely incorrect. 

As for the idea I must have an STI, this is just whore-phobia and incorrect. 

I have felt for many years I do not owe anyone an explanation. It is my personal business. But I hope this post will help clients understand and can be something I can guide them to so I am not constantly asked the same question. 

The truth: 

I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and suspected Endometriosis. I also have pelvic floor dysfunction, which means tightening of my pelvic floor leads to me to be in week long bouts of agony. This leads to pain with penetration, pelvic pain, and pain with intercourse and orgasm which can be of varying levels. Sometimes a 10, sometimes a 4. I also don’t react well to most forms of birth control, so instead I take a specific medication for endometriosis that has similar effects to chemical menopause. 

It makes the risk of a client taking the condom off or a slip or so on, catastrophic for me and my health situation. This is a small summary of a very complicated in depth medical journey I am working on, but its not one with a magical fix.

This situation does not mean I don’t like sex or fingering or orgasms or oral, don’t want sex, don’t enjoy sexual contact. It is not about what I like or dislike. It is about what my body can and cannot handle, which changes daily.

Maybe one day my health situation will change and I will offer full service again. But my opinion is not changed by those begging me or pushing me for it. Instead it puts me off ever returning to it. 

The way you look or if you “give me an orgasm” or so on has zero to do with anything and will not change my policy. There is no secret extra price. Pushing and negging and presuming these things only ruins a booking and your chances of seeing me when it occurs over text. 

I have had a few instances of clients either not understanding my ad (and not giving me a heads up to this) or not reading it and coming into a booking thinking full service is an option and then getting aggressive to me and/or demanding money back after services have been given, threatening me and my safety and so on. I will not stand for this. My advertisements make it very clear in bold in multiple spots I do not offer full service.

I will not stand for physically or verbally aggressive behaviour because you can’t stick your dick somewhere. It is your responsbility to understand what is available in advance. If this continues in bookings I have no problem kicking you out or calling the police. If you also wish to spend your whole booking nagging me for full service, I will also stop the booking and kick you out.

Please respect my privacy, do not continue to ask for more information or beg for full service. Make use of your booking time to enjoy ourselves, not pester me.

Stopping offering full service has shown me how many different ways there is to explore touch, intimacy, sexual pleasure, and explore Kink. There is so much more to the world of intimacy than penis in vagina. There is many ways I can enjoy myself in bookings with clients and they can also enjoy the time.

Don’t tie yourself down to one act, come and explore what else there is to the world with me. 

Rain xx.